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Love always and forever, Emily

I’m laying in my bed and I just started to hear rain drops tap against my window. When I hear those little taps, it brings back so many memories.
The day you asked me out, August 4, 2012, you had a block party. I curled my hair and tried my best to look halfway decent and it started pouring. My hair was a mess, my mascara was running, and to top it all off I was wearing my Doors shirt, which was white. You immediately gave me your shirt to wear and I gladly took it because it was so sweet. I thought we were gonna book it to your house but no, we stood in the middle of the street and the guys started playing volleyball so you gave me a kiss and ran over and started playing with them. So I jus sat there, in the rain, looking like a hot mess, still fan-girling that I just became your girlfriend, and I remember being so pissed that I took so much time to get ready only for all my hard work to be washed away. We finally walked back to your house and we were both drenched from head to toe. Your shirt, which I was still wearing, was huge on me because it was soaked in water, made me look like I wasn’t wearing shorts. So we walked up your street hand-in-hand as a couple for the first time.

The first day you came over my house, we decided to walk around my neighborhood and it started down pouring out of no where. So we ran under these huge trees on the long ass road that leads to my middle school and the playground. It wasn’t much shelter because we still get drenched but we didn’t really mind it much because we had each other. I remember kissing you so many times and I loved every single silly peck on my lips and my cheek and I loved feeling your hands make your way across my hips.
For months, every time we saw each other it would rain. We didn’t mind much because rain meant having to stay inside and cuddle all night.
When I hear those little taps on my window, it takes me to my happy place; in your arms.

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6/12/14
I know these past few weeks have been tough on us and I know we’re still trying to figure things out but I’m so glad we’re still together. I would be completely lost, depressed, and heartbroken without you. You helped me stop cutting and I know the first thing I would do if we ended would be to cut myself. Whenever I feel the urge to or just feel sad and want to do it, I think about how it would effect you and how disappointed you would be in me.
You are my world, my heart, my everything. When you told me that we share the same soul, everything made sense. You are my happiness, you are my
sadness, you are my life, and that’s how I always want it to be. Whenever you’re not around, the only thing I’m thinking of is how it would be if you were there. I never want to have to wake up in a world where you’re no longer mine. The thought of you loving someone else brings me to tears, worries me to no end, and kills me inside.
When you begin a relationship you never really think about how serious it is. But I just realized something; When you start a relationship you either end in a heartbreak or you marry one another. And I definitely know I met my husband too soon.
Are you afraid of being alone? ‘Cause I am, I’m lost without you. I love you so much baby and I’ll never say it enough but I will do my best to show you that I love you, each and everyday.

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Today was simply amazing. Waking up to you climbing into my bed and wrapping your arms around me. Just being able to sit and talk to you about really nothing at all, means the absolute world to me.

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